Our perfect gift.

In the midst of all the excitement of having a baby, there are still those moments when a parent has to think about the reality of a perhaps more trying situation, such as a special needs baby. At our visit last month, we were asked to think about whether or not we wanted testing for Downs Syndrome amongst other situations that the Lord could bring into our life. After a lot of thought, we also had to weigh the financial side of things. To do these tests would run a bit expensive and most insurance companies wouldn't cover it due to the possibility of, if a parent(s) found out their child had a special need, abortion being be an "option," which is heartbreaking. Of course, for us it wouldn't, but at one point in time, we (especially myself) thought we'd like to know what we had to look forward to, once Baby was here, via testing. I thought that I'd like knowing because it would give us time to understand the unique case our child might have and being so young to start with, it would give Mark and I time to readjust our lives if need be. But after a lot of conversation, prayer and advice, we decided not to go through with testing.

When I told our doctor at this week's visit, a sense of relief washed over me. I, personally, had completely given the situation to the Lord in that moment and made the commitment to trust Him entirely through the remainder of this pregnancy, something I always found Mark seemed to be better at than I am. God is always strengthening me through my husband! It was now all officially in His hands alone and I was to wait patiently on Him. At the end of the day, no matter what situation our child(ren) might encounter, we know that the Lord will bless us and remain faithful to us through all adversity and prosperity. Special needs or not, we will love this little bundle of joy to the fullest as Christ has loved us past all of our own unique situations, even when we leave Him! Every child is a gift and when one receives a gift, he doesn't question it. He welcomes it thankfully. ♥